I can't sleep, again. Of course.
My thoughts consume and I disgust myself. I'm better than this...
at least that's what I thought.
I'm walking along a trail but I'm lost. More or less like a robot.
just walking.
..nowhere.
Thinking. Lost.
*sigh*
...this wretched love story. destined to be filled with tragedy that completely shatters me.
I am only human...
incapable of loving and balancing everything that defines me.
define risky. define Rudi.
I feel like a shell. I've filled myself with late night feelings, early morning regrets.
*sigh*
Thinking. Still lost.
...what i'm doing here?
Hurting myself...again, again, and again.
There's a hatred brewing inside of me just waiting to be released. I love you too much.
Too much. I need to write.
I need to vent.
I need something....
*sigh*
yeah, i'm no way prepared for this heartbreak that's coming. Soon.
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